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Ok, I ‘m losing focus - AGAIN!!  I need to find something to help me!  I didn’t have a very good week last week because I let my busy-ness be an excuse to say, I don’t need to workout tonight or, I can have more of that!  Grrr!!  I’ve never been so close to reaching my goal and I’m finding myself fading away.  With the holidays comming around this really scares me!!  Does anyone have any refocusing tips for me????

After how I felt yesterday, I didn’t think I would get much of a workout at all.  But I went anyway and boy did I work out!!!  I worked my butt off for 2 hours!!!!  I felt so good afterwards!!  Although I was still tired, I felt more awake and had more energy than I did at lunch time when I wrote my blog!!  I am so proud of myself!!  I am 5lbs away from my short term goal as of last friday and I am still working strong!!!  Thanks to everyone who has posted back to my blogs when I am not doing so hot. You guys are great!!!

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Today is my normal day to go to the gym and I feel sooo sleepy!!  I am still recovering from  a tough weekend!  Now I am sooo sleepy and I can’t even imagine myself working out.  I’m going to do it, I promise, but OMG, I so don’t want to today!

Grrr….  I can’t seem to help myself at dinner time!!   I eat what ever and however much I want!  How do I stop myself?????  In the morning and throughout the day I am fine but at dinner time I just eat so much.  At my house we usually go for what is easiest or fastest, therefore not so healthy. This week I have pretty much no time to work out.  I did a really good workout on Monday then tuesday I did some at home stuff like weights and sit ups but no cardio.  Last night I was in a meeting until after 9:00 and tonight I have plans with friends.  Of course tomorrow is Halloween so I’ll be busy with the kids all night and then I have a party after all the kid’s stuff.  There is just no room!!!  But of course there’s plenty of room for eating!!  There is food at every event…and not the healthy kind!  I need all the encouragement I can get to get through this week!!

I need to boost my energy so bad!  I am working out and eating right but I still cannot wake up!  I know it is mostly from the medicine I take but I’ve got to figure something out!!  I’m going to challenge myself to stop drinking caffine.  This is going to be so hard for me!!  I love my coffee in the morning and my Diet Pepsi in the afternoon!!!  I know apples have natural caffine so I’ve bought me a large bag of apples and I’m going to live on them!!  I’ve already had my coffee this morning so its going to be hard to get throught the afternoon without my pepsi but I’m gonna do it!! 

I don’t really have much to blog today but I feel like if I dont i’m going to loose my motvation.  I have been wanting to weigh myself all week but my scale doesn’t work properly.  I can weigh myself 10 times in a 5 minute period and get 10 lbs difference each time.   My husband keeps forgetting to stop on the way home an get a new one.  Grrrrr.  I’ve been so tired all week and tonight is my gym night so I’ve got to find some energy!!  I’m doing the most boring job at work today so no excersize there, I might just fall asleep!  Anyway I think I’ve complained enough!!  On the positive side I really think I have lost about 2 lbs since my last accurate weigh in!  So hopefully buddyslim is working for me!!  I have been doing really well with watching what I eat which I am so proud of!  I still slip up when I see Pizza or most reciently cookies and such but I have stopped myself even then when I REALLY wanted more!  So Yay Me!  Wish me luck this weeked when I go to Chicago to see Dirty Dancing on Broadway!!!  I’m so excited!!  This i my 1st broadway show!!  Anyway it is going to be an entire weeken trip with all the women in my family so I know there will be plenty of food put in my face!!

Last night I had a terrible migraine, so today I have no energy and all my muscles ache.  I am trying to keep myself from eating all the tootsie rolls at my station at work to make my self “feel better” even thought I know it wont.  I am trying to motivate myself so I can work out tonight.  I have no energy aaahhhh!  Right now I keep telling myself that as long as I go to the gym and try it’ll all be ok.  I just may not be able to work as hard as I normally would.  Grrr, that is so dissapointing!

Ok, this is my first post so if it sounds totaly stupid bare with me! lol 

I am 26 years old, married with 2 gorgeous kids.  My daughter will be 4 in October and my son is 20 months old.  I have been overweight all my life.  After having my kids I gained tons of extra weight, and with that came depression!  I have worked really hard on getting my whole self better and since January I have lost 30 lbs and significantly reduced my depression!  I am very excited about that but I still have about 30 to go!! I am absolutly stuck!!  I have hit a major plataeu that I need help getting over. 

I hope to find lots of good motivation and friends here.  I am excited to be here!